Welcome to Mary’s World………..
Hi, I’m Mary…………..
I don’t know how to start a blog. I can’t even believe that I am writing one. I have been a mother for 2 months and 1 week now and I will be going back to work next week. When I became a mother, a very familiar feeling washed over me. One I hadn’t felt in about 10 years and one I would have liked to have left in the dark depths of my past. I think it must be a hormone thing with me but not since I was a teenage girl have I felt so out of control of my emotions. I am a very emotional person and I was just starting to feel like as I moved toward 30 years old, I was really grounded, really sane. Then I had Emily. I felt like I was right back in high school where my emotions controlled me and made me crazy. I hate that feeling. So, the blog was born. I know…….that was a huge jump. What I am saying is that when I was in high school the only thing that kept me from ACTUALLY going crazy was writing in my journal. This was my way of getting things out. Now, this is my grown up way of doing the same thing. I will be writing about how I feel about my life, being a mommy and soon, being a working mommy. I am certainly not arrogant enough to think that anyone but me cares to read this but it will be out on the web just the same. I have read other blogs written by mothers and it makes me happy to know I am not the only one who feels out of control, scared or uncertain about this whole motherhood thing. Maybe people will read what I write and find a similar feeling to one I have felt. Or, maybe this blog will exist in cyberspace, unread, untouched and remain just for me. Either way, here it is. Mary attempting to master herself……..Mastering Mary.
